I’ve been helplessly depressed for months now. The weight of not having a car is crushing. Not being able to get myself to work. Begging for rides home after a late night shift from co-workers and my mother is undoing my confidence. I woke up this morning crying because I had to ask my sister for a ride and she went on a tangent about not having gas and that I always ask her for rides. I feel helpless. I can’t do anything for myself because I can’t get myself to where I need to be. Honestly I just want it to be over. I don’t have that much going for me anyway. I’m broke, not in school, living in my moms house. This isn’t where I saw myself 6 years ago. I’m failing and I just want it all to be over.